A NOTIFICATION OF LOSS(a feeling of maturity)

I see my lips losing the tinge of baby pink-

I see a brown hue spreading...

  Is it for the million Marlboros??

Or is it for the thousand times my lips kissed your venom??

           Is it for the hundredth time i abused??

Or is it for the LOSS OF THE BABY in me??

Perplexed,I was caught red handed staring at the 

slowly fading tint of baby pink...  

I welcomed the brown hue!!